Friday, May 28, 2010

Letter of Hope for the Holiday Weekend

Below is a very touching Letter of Hope from a former patient to wish you all a safe, sober and fun Memorial Day weekend!!

"My name is Vince S. and being an alcoholic and drug addict is just the tip of the iceberg.  I have caused a tornado of destruction in my life.  You see, I am and have always been addicted to not wanting to feel.  I came from a privileged and successful home with loving parents and had every opportunity for a good life.  You see, this disease is not prejudice and if left untreated you and I will die for sure.

HVRC has been a blessing to me.  I am so much more than just an alcoholic and addict.  It truly is the "ism."  I not only have a physical disease of alcoholism but I am also terminally ill with a disease of the mind and soul.  I hope that you realize this is your time here because to me it is the key for me to live my life without dying from the addiction that has destroyed my life time and time again.  I honestly thought before that it really was the booze and drugs that I had a disease and that meant a physical state of body and brain.

Cunning, baffling and powerful.  I have a disease - the only disease that tells me I don't have one.  All so I can go out and drink again.  I am convinced -through the grace of God leading me to HVRC - that I am sick in the mind - and sick spiritually.  I am slowly but surely grasping and developing the skills it requires for me to live a life of true sobriety, gratefulness, humility, and humbleness.  And I will fall short - I am human.  However, I have accepted that I am no saint.  The important truth for me to remember on a daily basis that I must turn everything over to the care of God.

You will be given a set of physical, mental and spiritual tools here, but it is up to you to be willing to surrender first so you can receive them and then put them to use in your own recovery.

May God Bless you and keep you until then,

Vince S."

Friday, May 14, 2010

Future Keepers Gratitude

The following poem was written by one of our younger adults in our Future Keepers group.  Future Keepers is a group for all the patients/residents from the age of 18 to 30 to meet and discuss the issues surrounding chemical dependency that are pertinent to their age group.

"To HVRC

My home away from home, that it will forever be,
I will sincerely miss you, HVRC

You've made a man of Peter Pan
And made rainy days, shine again
Making no foes, only friends
That loved me for me, so I didn't have to pretend.

Tears I have shed, letting go of old resentments,
My life is now somewhat smooth with just a little resistance.
You gave me the knowledge of relapse prevention.
You also gave me true friends with lots of love, hugs and kisses.

I almost forgot to mention, you also gave me hope,
You untied the knot of my suicidal rope,
Never once was it around my throat, but always close by
Until you gave me the courage to tell it, "Good-bye."

So in my heart you will always be
My home away from home, the miracle making HVRC."

Friday, May 7, 2010

Mother's Letter of Hope...

Due to Mother's Day being this weekend, I would like to share a mother's Letter of Hope that she wrote during her stay at Hemet Valley Recovery Center.

"How I was before:
Before I came to HVRC, I was on my last leg.  With many tries to stop drinking on my own that I ended up failing.  I was a disgrace to my children and family.  I was on the very edge of imploding and total humiliation.  I stayed secluded from everyone I knew because of this addiction.  I hid bottles of alcohol in various and many places.  I felt very blessed that after a couple of years of drunkenness on my behalf, my family still loved me and totally supported my recovery.

Since in HVRC:
During my stay at HVRC, I have come to realize through excellent counseling and informative group sessions what a really blessed person I am.  I am alive, I know that I MUST use the awesome tools that I have been given to finish my recovery and stay sober.  I'm thankful to all my peers, my case manager and the staff!  They have all been very understanding, kind and greatly appreciated.  I can now be emotionally freed of all my demons and chains.  What a calm and complete feeling I have from this experience.  Most of all HVRC peers and staff have given me the gift to renew my stagnant relationship with God (my higher power) for which I am extremely excited about.

Hopes and Dreams
I know when I go home, I will have all the tools necessary to carry on a sober and healthy life with my family, friends, and especially myself.  I know my God loves me!  I will be back at church with a new light in my heart and soul.  My hope is that I will continue on this path and grow stronger each day, one day at a time with God's will to guide me.  I hope to be able to continue to understand my emotions, needs, and feeling and not to act on any of them, take the time to think them out and make the appropriate decision necessary to live a long and healthy life, to see my children get married, to meet and know my grandchildren and great grandchildren, to continue to love and be loved by my family and children.  I have dreamed many nights of acquiring a job that will always keep me busy, pays decently, with the ability to move up in the company.  A job where I can serve, help, and give back to those in need.  I know this will come to me in time.  I prayed on this many times.  let go and let GOD and BELIEVE!!

Jamie"